If You Touch Me

If you touch me,
If you brush back the hair from my face,
If you touch me,
I’m afraid I’d be scattered all over the place.
If you hold me I fear I may fill up with air
like a Thanksgiving float.
If you kiss me beware of the flowers I’m certain
will fly from my throat.
I’d like to pretend I could stay cool and calm and collected but I know
if you touch me I’d probably fly
from this step to the depths of the sky
We'd be tearing through heaven if I
wasn't too scared to let go...
.
No…
.
No, don’t look at me. No, don’t say those things,
don’t wink your eye, make that face, don’t pretend that’s it’s
innocent, not when I know and you know, so just--
please no, don’t ask without asking, don’t say without
saying, we can’t and I won’t, no, I don’t, no we
can’t, no I won’t be that woman.
I can’t let you-- I won’t be the
one….
.
No, I won’t break the hearts and the dreams and the vow, I just
can’t, won’t allow all this mess, yes this mess we’ve begun
.
Even though you are so…
.
So…
.
And I just want to—no, I just have to say no,
Don’t.
No.
but just know…
.
If you touch me…
If we fell from the world and were free.
And you touched me,
Heaven knows what I’d say or I’d do or I’d be.
If you murmured my name I’d be all but the same,
and I’d melt into night.
And I’d shiver and tremble and glow with a
strange and a powerful light.
And I’d like to pretend it would work in the end,
but I know myself, and so,
even though if you’d touch me I know we would fly…
In a while we would tumble like blood from the sky…
So, even though I know, and you know, and there’s just still much we could…
.
No…
.
I have to let you go.
.
No…
.
Just go.
.
If you touch me…..